i try and i try to look at videos and listen to Michael's music as much as i can, but i don't know what comes over me when i do, such overwhelming sadness and grief and torment, that there are times it is impossible to go near what Michael created for us all. still, when i do, i am looking at the most beautiful creature God created, the most talented, just the most.........i miss you Michael, and all you would have accomplished in these last 5 years. we could have had so much more from you, but i guess you just didn't know that.