Dearest Mike,I have tried to read all those messages from all the people whom are still missing you so much,and still have that emptiness without you among us,I feel also for them ,because like them I trie to accept,but its so difficult to do so,I wrote before that I am no longer sad....but to be honest...Today I have that heavy and frustrating helpless feeling insite me,of wanting you back...,I miss you and your tales off live,and I miss that feeling off happiness when you were one with the fans who like I do and feel as a devoted fan still love you like noone else on this planet,I am already 47 years old,so from your era,but I still feeling myself that happily guy who had found his muzik and swinged for hours on your awesome grooves,I dont want to sound boring ore so,but Michael I have this sad feeling in my body today,so again today I need you to cheer me up Mike,like so many others on this earth,I miss you...I send all my love to heaven for you from the bottom off my hart....I so wished that I could see you for one tiny moment to see how you are doiing upthere in your new world,I have no doubt that they love you as much as we still do and always will,Today vorgive me,Ive got some trouble to give it a place in me....you and also the loving persons that keep ya alive true this 'homecoming site'are in my hart,and Mario also to you ,my deepest respect,I think that Michael has to be very,very proud for having such friends still around him like you and yours there in Australia,I am also thinking about you people with your lives with your heavy task for mike ...,you are,like we say in holland Special breed,........,I wont vorget what you are doiing for us all,.....I already feeling myself a little better for saying this to you,......Love ya all upthere,....in my hart you are Mike.....peace, Ruud.